I remember my mom taking me to church when I was a kid… I didn’t actually have faith in God…I just went to church because Mom took me. When I made my first visit to church after about 15 years of absence I was terrified! But I went because my life was a mess and despite all my own efforts, I could not straighten myself out!
God knew He would be the answer to my problems…
He graciously brought me to my knees…
I was guilty of putting my own desires and wants and fun and work and relationships above the God who gifted me to be able to even participate in those things.
It was a struggle every week to go to go to church. But He kept drawing me back…
It was difficult to hear the things said that I needed to hear. But He knew it would be best for me…
It was difficult to be loved by people who I barely knew. But He gave them to me as a gift…
It was just plain difficult all the way around….and it still is in a good way…
“Man . . . is few of days and full of trouble.” Job 14:1
But God has continued to show us that His Son, His Word, His plan for redeeming His people, His church is precious and us being a part of it is precious. And the joy that comes from receiving such great gifts from The Greatest Giver is inconceivable!
And I still struggle with Him
But He steadfastly draws me to Himself
To the heavenly things
To His Word
To His people
To His mercy & kindness
To His faithfulness & devotion
To His abiding love and affection
To His discipline which corrects me
Not to the things of this earth that remain a short while and fade from dust to dust
But to Him & things eternal & everlasting…like His love & justice
This is a quote by a man of God now deceased:
“We should love, but we should love with the love that expects death, and that reckons upon separations. Our dear relations are simply loaned to us, and the hour when we must return them to the lender’s hand may be sooner than we think.”
This is the love of God…. that God gave….He gave Himself…completely…when He reckoned to give His Son, Jesus…
as a payment for our sin… not begrudgingly as we give…but planned from the beginning of time for His joy and ours…so that we may we bask in Him and the life He claims in us forever! And that we may share this love with others!